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The Fight For Tomorrow's Sunrise: Part 1 - Origins

Updated: Apr 27, 2022

DISCLAIMER: This essay solely expresses the author’s views, experiences, and opinions, which may not represent the views, experiences, or opinions of EVOLVERE Mental Health.

This essay contains graphic descriptions of traumatic events and suicide attempts, mature subject matter, and mature language.

This essay discusses self-harm and suicide for the purpose of sharing the author’s experiences and opinions in an effort to help individuals who can relate to the author, not to sensationalize or encourage acts of self-harm or suicide attempts. If you or someone you know is considering, or have attempted, acts of self-harm or suicide, please reach out to a trained professional as quickly as possible by calling a suicide hotline or 911/your local emergency number.

Please consult a mental healthcare provider before creating or changing your treatment/therapeutic plan.

Reader discretion is advised.


My name is Victor, I am closer to the half-century mark than I would like to admit. To give you some background on where I am today before I share my origins: I am in a loving relationship with my wife of over twenty-five years, we have two young adult daughters and a beautiful granddaughter. The last six years have been quite challenging for my family as I have been dealing with the aftermath of suppressing over thirty years of trauma. I will share my long list of diagnoses with you, not for validation of any kind, but as more of a way for me to share my truths about my mental illnesses adventure. To be clear, I prefer to use the term adventure instead of the mental health community’s de facto term journey. To me, a journey has a predefined beginning with a destination in mind, not to mention a loose agenda or guideline on how to get from point A to point B. Adventures are more spontaneous events… contain controlled or uncontrolled chaos… present choices that keep you in motion