Well, as of right now...I'm not a student anymore.
I feel...nervous, excited to apply everything that I've learned, scared, but mostly angry because this isn't by choice. I graduated in the middle of the pandemic and applied for grad school, but got rejected. I did what I could do to strengthen my application and applied again, but I just got word that it doesn't look like it will be happening for me this year.
All my life I've been a student. When I introduce myself to people one of the first things I say is that I'm a student and then I go on a tangent about what I'm studying 😅. I know it might sound weird, but I'm just really passionate about what I was studying and I feel like being a student is...was...a part of who I am.
I know that I have other options and that I can even try again, but who's to say that I'll be successful next time? I feel like I have more to offer.
Now that I've lost my role as a student, I feel a little lost myself.